In my mind now

HEy hello, its like so strange that im changing and its like when im changing i feel its is not me again. You know, if i know, im try to find my old self back and reflect what on earth that im doing, why im not doing the stuff that i suppose to do. My brothers ask me just to do your thang but im kinda hook up with something that i cant do my thang and i dont know whats the thing. I just want to be the true me thats all. A girl just msg me (well actually i msg her first) yesterday saying to chillax, take it one step at a time, when u think u r confident enough, then tell that person. Don't have to rush, rushing's not good, u might regret later. So take it slow. Well in my mind ive been hook up because of her. I just wanna tell her that i love you from the bottom of my heart but im just scard of she saying ur not my type of guy that im looking for let us be best friend ohkay and im like uhh. I dont want this to happen. I dont want myself to fall in a mess. Damn because of a chick im stress. I know that imma pu..y but its just me. Being pu..y its just my old me. Well i guess if i be a pu..y everything would be better. . . . .